UMM HEY...SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLY...first of all i wanna apologize for greeting you so late.. im not even gonna lie i did forget your birthday because IM VERY FUCKING STUPID and i keep forgetting to put my friends' birthdays on a fucking calendar app as if thats fucjing hard to do. I AM SO FUCKING SORRY IM SO DEMENTED I TRUSTED MYSELF TO REMEMBER BIRTHDAYS FOR SOME REASON I THPUGHT YOUR BIRTHDAY WAS IN APRIL??? WHY????? IDFK IM STUPID AS FUCK...BUT THQYS NOT AN EXDUSE ITS SO EMBARRASSING THAT THE BIRTHDAY I FORGOT WQS YOURS I WWANT TO JUMP IN A PIT AND DIE AND HIDE IN SHAME FOR FUCKING EVER AND ILL NEVER FORGUVE MUSELF BUT IM REWLLY SO SORRY FOR MISSING YOUR BIRTHDQY IM PISSED AND ILL SPEND MY ENTIRE LIFE IN ATONEMEMT FOR MY SIN

ok now i need to calmdown fornq sec so i csn qctually wish you a proper happy birthday..im currently writing this on my notes app at 12:10 because my internet died but anyways heres some sappy word vomit

well idk how to start this but its crazy im already celebrating your birthday for a 2nd time now...weve been friends for a year WHATT.. a year is such a long time especially considering how we met in a game full of foul people who switch sides so fast so often. youve really been stuck w me for a year now through all the fiascos and drama and crashouts and crazy shit i say and do ermm and for all of that i feel like i dont say or express enough how much i appreciate you as a friend and as a person, i have trouble expressing myself seriously but ill try locking in because i know you're someone worth saying it to

idk how to start this but i have always appreciated how genuine you feel to me as a person. Idk how to explain it, but you're sincere without forcing it and you're kind without the need to make a big show out of it. Im not saying this at all to glaze you on your birthday but i have expressed it a lot of times that autheticity is something i really value in people. A lot of people especially in the community were apart of play versions of themselves, and its not to say that you don't, but to me you're always yourself as much as possible and that's something i really respect about you. You feel like a genuinely kind and sincere person to me, and some people may see that as a weakness, but being around someone as genuine as you makes me feel like I could try to be better too. And I hope nothing anyone ever does or says about you makes you change that part of you

Throughout the year i've gotten to know you you've become someone I'm genuinely comfortable with. I'm not the nicest person. In fact I may be one of the worst, i say and do insensitive things, I see the worst in people before I could even really see them for who they really are, but you still accept me as I was even though I can be a lot. Or maybe not, but even when you don't fully understand what I'm doing or know what the fuck I'm talking about, you're always ready to listen regardless of what I'm cooking up. It really means a lot to me that you try to understand me even though I say and do stupid and crazy shit. And I don't take that for granted. Talking to you is one of the things I look forward to the most when I wake up because you're just that comfortable to talk to.

Thank you for sharing a year with me as my friend, ally. I hope your day has been well even though I wasn't around much today and i forgot your bday agghhhhhh fuckk fuck fuck but yeah I hope you had fun celebrating and ate lots of good food. I'm always rooting for you and i hope life treats you kindly

when this message reaches you iveprobably pqssed out im so fried andn tired from todwy

also i tried to rush sketch a potrait of you on ibispaint [https://i.ibb.co/DP9jyXNs/imfried.jpg] i wanted to color it qs well but rhis is the best i could do rn i was jailed so hard todqy and i just staryed this when u reminded me it was ur birthday..(embarrassijg) i couldnt capture yoir gorjusity rn i just drew you from memory i only remember ur old pfp on prehev server im cooked im so sorry if it doesnt look like u lets jst say its the argstyle #lol ... made the mistake of being ambitious and doing a realisticish artstyle whennim fried im not good at drawing real people but uhhh i hope this is acceptable, happy biryjday ally

sorry fir the block of text i jjs be saying shit